Journal of a Sysadmin

99% effort 1% motivation

The gym is really hard this time around.

Last time I started a 12 week cycle there were a lot of things different. Head space wise. I know things aren’t right because of the cleaning and the caring about certain things including what I eat and drink. I see my weight going up but… *sigh* I wonder if I care?

So yesterday I went into the gym for cardio and it was *everything*, every last ounce of what I had, to spend a 1/2 hour breathing and sweating. My legs actually felt weak afterwards… This time last year an hour and I didn’t feel like this. Hell, I ran the CCC 10k in September and didn’t feel like that after.

So it took 99% of my effort to move my 1% motivation. Today I was going to try and get into work early (7:30ish) and go do my upper body workout before work so that I could play soccer at lunch. What am I doing? I feel like a slug, I have zero motivation for pretty much anything, and I still have to get the baby ready for daycare and get to work at the crack of 9…

And just when things feel like they could be good, it changes. Life is hard with 1% motivation…

Funny stuff

Saw two bumper stickers this morning, both on the same car (or should I say mini van just like ours).

First one, “why are all the really cool girls lesbian?”

Second one, “Do I look like a fucking people person to you?”

I think I want one of the second sticker for my cubical at work.