Journal of a Sysadmin

99% effort 1% motivation

The gym is really hard this time around.

Last time I started a 12 week cycle there were a lot of things different. Head space wise. I know things aren’t right because of the cleaning and the caring about certain things including what I eat and drink. I see my weight going up but… *sigh* I wonder if I care?

So yesterday I went into the gym for cardio and it was *everything*, every last ounce of what I had, to spend a 1/2 hour breathing and sweating. My legs actually felt weak afterwards… This time last year an hour and I didn’t feel like this. Hell, I ran the CCC 10k in September and didn’t feel like that after.

So it took 99% of my effort to move my 1% motivation. Today I was going to try and get into work early (7:30ish) and go do my upper body workout before work so that I could play soccer at lunch. What am I doing? I feel like a slug, I have zero motivation for pretty much anything, and I still have to get the baby ready for daycare and get to work at the crack of 9…

And just when things feel like they could be good, it changes. Life is hard with 1% motivation…

5km run, a little bike and a little abs

37 minutes total.

5km run was 25m 10s which would be great to carry out to 10km, but on the track 10km might really suck.

Boarding and the Gym

So, among other things (family, work, sleep) I’ve been doing a lot of boarding at sunshine and gone to the gym a couple of times.

I must say that the boarding is getting really good and last Friday I managed to actually start carving on Goats Eye! It’s a really cool feeling whipping along just on your edges, but at the same time the speed still freaks me out a bit (I imagine catching that edge at Louise, and going down on my shoulder). Anyway, I need to get better still (steeps also still scare the shit out of me) and will if I can manage to keep it up. We’ll see.

It’s snowing now and I hope by Saturday there’s three feet of fluffy white stuff at the top of the gondola!